Here We Go Again

So here we are again

Same process

Same stupidity

Probably same ending

...Different name

Can’t believe I let myself do this again

What was I thinking

Why didn’t I learn

More people hurt

It weighs on me

I didn’t want this

We don’t need this

I need to just not let it run

I let it go

And it runs to far

Shorter leash?

Nah, don’t even need to let it go at all

Stay with me forever, inside... never run again

But, yet I’ve done it again

Pain I’ve caused

I can’t mend it

I can’t fix any of this

So again I’m left waiting

Watching

Wondering

How bad did I mess up now

Is there even a future

Is it all gone…over

I’m still hoping

There could be a happy ending

But I’m not optimistic

All I can do is wait, hope, wonder and pray