I was thinking the other day and came to the realization that when I finally say “I can’t get it right,” is when He says, “Finally, she gets it.”
Think about it, only when we start to realize that we are not and will NEVER be perfect or ‘get it right’, then will we actually get it. He shines through our imperfections. I was chatting with a friend the other day, and he pointed out that perhaps my brokenness is exactly what I needed to force me to fully depend on Him; breaking me down to almost nothing gives me no other option then to just look up. I am learning to hand it all over to Him, I am far from doing so, but I know that once I do, things will start to happen, not by my doing but by His. That is a promise we can all depend on. Now, it never says that ‘bad’ things wont happen, but it does say that all of it is used to help us learn and grow, it all has meaning and He is right there with us through it all. It is all for the good of us.
“…we know that in ALL things God works for the good of those who love him”-Romans 8:28
As hard as it is to believe, every time, good AND bad, easy AND hard, happy AND sad, are all just being used to shape you the way He wants too and they are all working towards the overall good. You can’t have good times without bad ones, you couldn’t have easy days without hard ones, and you wouldn’t appreciate the happy times without the sad times. I fight myself everyday to remember that these hard times are just another step, that it WILL get better and it is all going to work out… He is right with me, showing me the way. This is something I am slowly learning.
I now know that I can’t get things right, believe me, I’ve tried so many ways and ‘fixes’, none of which worked… luckily, I know who can and does get everything right and I’m now in the perfect position for Him to say “finally”. So, now I say ‘here I am, I can’t do it, please help me.’