sixty-five days

65 days…

It’s been sixty-five days.

What’s different?

…To tell the truth, at this point, not much.

More than likely, that’s my fault

But,

I’m about the same place I was when I started

Gaining more knowledge,

But

Along with it, more scars

Internal

External

Emotional

Physical

Sixty-five days

65 days since I started something new

Fresh

Since I started over

I guess I didn’t really truly start over

Just proceeded with a new emotion

Same direction

Same mistakes

Same hurts

Do I feel different?

Honestly, maybe a little

But not much

I want to, but I refuse to lie to myself and others and say yes

I am trying

I am moving, not sure in what direction but I am moving

Sixty-five days

65 days ago I made a decision, a decision that did and will change my life

A lifelong decision, a never-ending decision,

A decision that will be with me for the rest of my life…

A decision only I could make

Sixty-five days ago

My.life.changed.

FORVER