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I’m tired of being told it’s going to be okay

I’m tired of being told there’s more

I’m tired of being told to hold on

I’m tired of being told I’m going to be okay

I’m tired of feeling alone

I’m tired of feeling lost

I’m tired of worrying

I’m tired of lying

I’m tired of faking it

I’m tired of masking

I’m tired of crying

I’m tired of losing it

I’m tired of bothering

I’m tired of being scared

I’m tired of fighting

I’m tired of feeling empty

I’m tired of being to told to trust

I don’t, I never have

I wish I could

More than anything,

I’m tired of my head

I just want to be able to rest, not even sleep… just rest

I’m just…tired.

I want to know it’s going to be okay

That there is more

That there is something to hold on to

That I will be okay

That I’m not alone

That I will find my way

That I don’t have to worry

I don’t want to have to lie

To fake it

To keep masking

I don’t want to have to cry

To keep losing it

I don’t want to bother

To be scared

To keep fighting

I want to be whole for the first time in my life

I’m tired of not knowing… I want to know, I NEED to know and above all… believe it.