Me

Who am I

I am simple yet complex

I am lover and a fighter

I am unique yet the same

I am me

I am who I am

I am in only child by blood

But I have many siblings, they’re just called friends in your eyes

They are here for me through it all

I am not as tough as I seem

I have a soft side rarely seen

I have walls, very high

They fall, I get hurt, they come back higher and stronger

Protection, I need to protect myself, I’ve been hurt, I say never again, but who knows

I have learned a lot in the last few years

I’ve made mistakes

But I do NOT have regrets; those mistakes have made me who I am today

I have gone through more loss than you know... that’s ok though

I am stronger for it

There is way more to me than you even know

I show you the surface, nothing more

I am changed

Hopefully for the better

I am growing

I am moving, forward I hope

But I go backwards to

I am stuck right now, ill figure it out though… I hope

I am the girl who can smile through it

I can hide it all

I can brighten your day on my darkest

I can show you my heart, but only if I want to

I can trust, but I don’t

If you gain my trust, you have me till I die

If you lose it, I’m sorry, it is hard to get back

I can close my eyes, yet I can’t shut off my heart

It is my downfall

I care for you more than you care for me

I love you more than you love me

I put me second time and time again

One day it IS going to kill me

I let things eat away at me

I push them down

I show no emotion

I am strong for you

I’m hesitant

I’m confused

I am shy

I am too nice

I’m scared to be happy

I’m scared you’ll leave me

I need you, I’ve already lost the ones I need the most

I’m scared ill be alone

I’m not happy with me

I don’t expect you to be with me either…its ok

I question... a lot

I shouldn’t, but I do... and that scares me

I doubt when I shouldn’t

I don’t accept when I should

I try to fix it all

I want to make YOU feel better

I hate when my friends hurt… I hurt

I don’t just say I want your pain, I really do and will take it if you let me

 this is who i am today, but it will change... dont judge me on my past, nor on what you think ill do, think of me today & if you are gonna judge, dont jump to conclusions, im not the same person i was yesterday or will be tomorrow.

 *this is probably an ongoing list...check back if you want*