Mistakes Creep Up

How could I let this happen

So few words

So much emotion

Driving me to think

Your solution creeps up

So quick…all would be gone

If only temporary

.. ..

My stomach turns

How could I even consider it

Let you all down

Everyday I think of you

You saved my life

Then all could be gone like that

All that work

Pain

Suffering

Mend

Gone in a few seconds

I’m scared

How could I even think about it

.. ..

One year, fifty-seven days

One year, one month, twenty-four days

Four hundred  twenty-two days

Gone in a flash

.. ..

I’m sorry I even thought about it

I’m sorry if I let you down

I’m trying, really I am

I’m just sorry

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