If You Only Knew

If you only knew

Knew the pain

In my head

My heart

My soul

In ME

It hurts

I hurt

I hurt for you

I hurt for them

I hurt for me

I try to just smile

I try, very hard

But

You know what

I’m tired

I’m tired of pretending

Faking

Masking

Harboring

I can’t take much more

I’m not even sure I can take any at all

I’m slowly dying

Dying inside

My soul is going

Fading

Faster and faster

My heart

My poor heart

It’s done

The last real beats are gone

Just going through the motions now

I’m done

I’m done trying

I’m done hurting

Well, that’s a lie, I will always hurt

I’m just done caring

Just accepting the pain now

I’m certainly done hurting people

I’m gonna be the one who makes them smile

I’m gonna light their way

My darkest day will be their brightest

And I’m ok with that

As long as they are ok

That’s all that matters

Just maybe one day you will see my pain

Then you might just say you’re sorry

For all you say

Remember,

No matter what people have

They can be the most unhappy

They can still hurt, a lot

One day you will realize this

I just hope

It’s not too late…