My Bird, My #3, My Angel

i wrote this about a year after we lost Sam...

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My eyes fill with tears


Just another school year without you here


To hold my hand like you did before


I try to think of the happy times


Memories that were so fun to make


I try to be happy knowing you’re in a better place


But it hurts knowing I can’t see your smile or hear your laugh when I crack a stupid joke


We shared so many secrets and so many joy-filled times


My heart over flows with your undying image

After you left the fights seemed so petty and the good times so few


We took for granted thinking we had so much time


But we never knew your life would be cut so short


You had so many dreams and goals for the future


But they were buried in the ground


Everyone cried when they got the news


We couldn't quite believe you were gone with no goodbyes

It turned my whole perfect world upside down


Nothing seemed to break through


Until you came to me in that dream and told me to let go


You said there was no more pain and everything was fine


You told me to be happy and go on with my life


Then you kissed me gently on the cheek, smiled and faded away


Now I know that you are truly gone


But the pain is sometimes strong


The fog around my heart is slowly disappearing


And I'm learning to love again


Your fate taught me to live my life the best I can each day


Never trust tomorrow cause it might not be there


So I stand here in the hallway as the tears run down my face


I smile and think


You were my love


You were my friend


And you'll be forever in my heart

<3 6/10/88-11/11/03 <3