I Question, Even With No Answers, I Continue

Why is this happening?

I just don’t understand why

I always ask why

I know ill never get an answer

There has to be a reason, I just will never know

Only He knows that reason though

I have to trust that it has a point

Its all for the better

But why can’t I deal with it

I should be able to

Why is it never easier?

Why doesn’t it get better?

Everyone says “in time…”

Well fuck time

That time never comes

…I’m still waiting and you know what,

I always will be

They say, “I’m here for you”

I know this

I know I have people around

Yet I feel so alone

Why do I feel alone?

Why do I feel abandoned?

Why can’t I make it better?

I need to make it ok

If I’m not ok, that’s fine

But I need them to be ok

I need them to stop hurting

God please give me their pain

Ill take it from them

Take it in

Just stop their pain

I find it hard to stay positive

As soon I’m up, I’m knocked back down

I’m tired…they’re tired

Just wanting a break

If only for a week, hell a day

Just something

I know He always has my back

But I do begin to lose faith some days

I get it back quick

But I still question, that scares me

I need to be stronger

I need to be better

I need to keep going

…That’s tough

I know it’s just a test

I hope I can pass

With them by my side I’m sure I will

I know its not supposed to be easy

But damn…

I guess all we can do is go forward

The problem is

I feel like as soon as I move forward

I end up farther back than I started

I hope I can get somewhere

But at this rate

I’m lost, not sure which way to go

I could use a little help…

So again, I’m left with questions with no answers

Pain with no heal

Heartache with no mend

Just wondering if it will ever stop